Bercinta Selepas Kahwin ;)

haha. topik t'hangat di pasaran. kuikui. inilah impian sy sekarang neh. akan t'capai ke hajat ku ini Ya Allah? erm

act, memang ramai girl yg bercita cita mcm aku ni. tapi wujud ke lelaki yg think alike mcm ni???
mcm2 alasan aku dengar dr manusia yg b'gelar lelaki ni 'sy nk kenal dulu pasangan sy hati budi die sblm kawen', 'sy nk pastikan kitorg sesuai sblm kawen', 'xkn xb'cinte nk terus kawen? buatnye awek sy tu perangai mcm hampeh lps kawen cmne?' hahaha

masing masing ade pandangan sendiri pasal ni. mungkin ade betolnye ape yg mereka mereka ni cakap, tak kenal terus nak kawen? gile ape? ingat ni zaman Tok Janggut dulu dulu pe? mak bapak aku pon b'cinte sblm kawen, ape masalahnye?

tapi ingatlah wahai manusia. Allah sememangnye menjadikan setiap makhluk-Nya berpasangan. janganlah sempitkan fikiran dengan 1001 soalan yang negatif negatif ni. kalau betul kite jalankan keenam-enam rukun iman. yang mana Percaya dan Beriman kepada Allah menjadi tunggak utamanya, kenapa masih timbul rasa ragu ragu dalam hati ni? Yakinlah pada Dia dan jangan jemu meminta...

siape yg tak nak bercinta? itulah sifat semulajadi kita kan yg diciptakan-Nya. kita rasa sunyi bila tak ada someone yg special. family? family laen... pasangan laen... tapi kita perlukan kedua-duanya. kan?

i'm kind of girl who wants to give and take super duper special attention for someone special and that someone would be the one i can call Husband;)
right now, i just keep myself and save the best for last man standing. the man who propose me for 'akad nikah yang pasti', not the man who tells me thousand of promises.
the man who are willing to assume responsibility to guide me to the path of Allah blessings.
An honorable man i will call husband...

having a husband/wife will ;

Pleases Allah

Halal

Good deeds

wife's heaven is under your Husband's please

Only husband shares your sins

marriage is count as "beribadat"

Sins shred to pieces as you hold his/her hand

INSYAALLAH

May Allah bless me and help me. aminnn...

special entry for a person called 'SAHABAT' ;)

sahabat : ade janji yg awk still x tunaikan.. dah setahun sy tunggu..
me        : janji ape??
sahabat : cube la ingat blk..
me        : rasenye sy tau.. awk nk sy pakai 'hadiah' yg awk bagi raye thn lps tu kn?
sahabat : ye.. bile sy tgk girl pakai 'hadiah' tu, sy t'ingat awk. tp awk xpenah pon pakai sampai
              skng.
me        : sy xpkai ade sebab..
sahabat : nape? buruk ke 'hadiah' tu? awk xsuke ye 'hadiah' tu???
me        : bkn mcm tu.. nt awk akan tau jgk ape sebabnye..
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that 'hadiah' is the most wonderful present i ever received. it is not expensive, not glory, not glamourous, not fabolous. no value of materiality but the 'hadiah' value are more than all that. he gave me a 'selendang' :)

at the moment i received the selendang, i made a promised with myself ' i'll wear it when i'll never throw it away again'.

i am a girl. and my passion is to be beauty. i admit that. freehair- to me it is compulsory for me if i want to looked pretty. set a trendy hair that suit my face. when people said ' ouhh suchha pretty hair'. i am very proud. to show people i have a wonderful hair, very satisfied my feeling.

but the moment my 'sahabat' gave me the selendang. deep in my heart i feel sad. i feel bad. i feel lack of something, my heart empty.

i wonder 'can i be a real muslimah, tutup aurat, jaga agama and all that?' 'sampai bila nak teruskan life mcm ni yg bebas mcm x ade agama?'. i am wondering all that in my mind.

i want a changes. to be a good girl. to be a great servant of my Creature. i'm seek of better life. but it is hard and difficult than i ever thought. i starts slowly and learn gradually about my own religion day by day. right until now, i've made my mind and will stick to it. i want to be a girl cover with her hijab whenever i'm not around my 'mahram'.

i have made a confirmation to myself, need to change and create a better life with blessing from Him. yet i know i am weak without His help. but i believe i could be strong if i never give up and always remember Him.

i want to Thank You Allah for showing me your Greatness and opened my heart return to Your way.
i was so far from You, yet to me You were always so close. i wanna thank You for all the things that You’ve done. You’ve done for me through all my years i’ve been lost. You guided me from all the ways that were wrong. i wanna thank You for bringing me home Ya Allah...

                                          

p/s ; sy masih dlm proses belajar dan masih mencuba untuk berubah ke arah yg lebih baik. sy tak kuat. sy

        lemah. sy tak sempurna...

        tp sy yakin Allah akan sentiasa menolong. insyaAllah...

        utk 'sahabat' sy Muhammad Ismail bin Zainal Abidin, harap penantian selama setahun awk berbaloi...

        terima kasih sbb hadiahkan benda paling berharga ni...

        sy hargai awk dalam hidup sy. Tq :)))

             

Ode to My Love #,#

Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn’t.

You can’t tell your heart what to do.

It does it on its own.

When you least suspect it,

or even when you don’t want it to.

Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had,

but that other person was too afraid to let you?

What would you do if every time you fell in love

you had to say good-bye?

What would you do if every time you wanted someone

they would never be there?

What would you do if you LOVED someone more than ever

but you couldn’t HAVE them?...  

What would you do if you never got the chance

to speak out your feeling to the people you loved?

I've been asking all these questions over and over in my head

but never get the answer...

we've been apart.

yet, I'll never forget to pray for you in my Du'aa.

*People live, but people die.

I want to tell you that you are a special person.

we can't be together,

but Allah gave me chance to know you.

and let me put you as a special one that ever came to my life.

and I keep that deepest in my heart.

Thank You ALLAH...

If you died tomorrow (nauzubillahminzalik)

YOU WOULD BE IN MY HEART AND MY PRAYERS ALWAYS...

WOULD I BE IN YOURS???

here, I just wanted to say, even if I never talk to you again in my life,

YOU ARE SPECIAL TO ME and you have made a difference in my life.

I look up to you. respect you. truly cherish you.

most of all I care about YOU.

I just want you to remember this LAST ode that i sincerely dedicate for you

and you could take comfort in knowing somebody out there CARES ABOUT YOU AND ALWAYS WILL…

eventhough you don't need that person anymore in your life.

yet, I still care about YOU...

as long as Allah let me...

p/s; i know you read this and you know i mean every single words i wrote.

       i am not chasing your love, much less get your sympathy.

       i just want to express my appreciation of your presence as a blessing  

       from Allah. i'm afraid that i will never get another chance to let you

       know it. *people live, but people die